Autobiography.

HI :) I'm Trinh. I love Pokemon, Starbucks Green Tea Frappucino, awkward moments & unusual things. I tend to let my emotions override my hopes and ambitions. I set foot on every obstacles in my life with pride and certainty & with the knowledge that I will not win every battle, though I do always put up a good fight. My life has taken multiple turns and I still continue to wonder where my place is at or how to get there. I am partially imperfect and partially uncertain of what perfection is, or if it exists. I grasp tightly onto my childhood memories, sometimes I feel like I'm reliving it. My family means more than the world to me, & side by side to them is my best friend, Timothy Ho. If I were to be missing even a fragment of either, my life would be so incomplete. I always have high hopes for tomorrow. I truly believe that every one deserves to feel special, thus I love to shower the people I love with honest compliments& make sure they know how important they are to me. I'm a compassionate person & practice the art of selflessness everyday :) Life is short, so make it sweet. Wonder, question and explore the different shapes, shades and colors of the world. It's beautiful, I promise.



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Monday, November 2, 2009

Why I can't love you like I want to.

You don't caress my face the way I want you to. You don't play with my hair the way I wish you would. You don't kiss me as gently as I kiss you. You don't play with my hands or wrap your fingers into mines. There is so much passion in my heart that I want to share with you, so much affection that I have to give. And you're just a hallow wall, so placid but impossible to get through to. I go about see through so that you can understand how bad I want to feel that you care, is it so hard?

You make me feel like a prize more than a person. When I walk away you hold me close, when I'm close you walk away. For the longest I've been patient, tolerant and trying. And for the longest I feel so unnoticed, unappreciated. Where is the compassion I feel so much deserving of? Am I asking for too much? For you to not be so emotionally monotonic when I need the support and comfort? When my eyes are swelling up with tears, why do I feel like you're smiling on the other line? I have a feeling that the only feeling you feel about me is anger and jealousy when I'm not doing what pleases you. Please believe that I have so much to give. But this one person relationship is beginning to take a toll on my emotional wellness. I do hope you realize that material things means nothing when mentally you make me feel so alone. I'm sure that there is nothing new that I haven't told you yet, these issues have been so constantly repetitive don't feel surprised when I say that I'm getting awfully tired of all of this. I can't love you like I want to, you make it so impossible. I open up my heart so that I can be loved. Though you claim you do, I don't feel like you're telling me the truth. Instead of affection all I have is dagger wounds. So please stop. If you care at all, please, stop. If you can't love me any better, just don't bother at all.